A Lightbulb Moment in Church

I went to church this evening and was so shocked and moved by the Preacher’s message. I had a huge revelation tonight. I have what I feel is an impossible situation. Now I know the Scripture that says with God all things are possible. This was tonight message by the way, impossible situations. I really thought that I trusted God with every thing any problem I think I have, I give it to him. Tonight, as the preacher was preaching He showed me I have not trusted him with all things in fact, this thing I have cursed him for.( I hate that I have to admit this out loud that I cursed Him for anything but I have.) My husband and I have been married for 8 1/2 years. We got married young, well I got married really really young I was 17. The fact that I was 17 and getting married everyone assumed that I had gotten pregnant. Well, that was not the case. The truth is in the last 8 1/2 years we have never used anything to stop us from getting pregnat. No, we have never been to the doctor to see what is wrong.  We have never had insurance to do that. I have cursed God for not fixing this. My arms ache to hold a child. You know the saying you cant miss someone you have never met, well it is so not true. I miss the children my husband and I  have not had. It is weird though the only way I make it through a day is by giving that ache to God.  This was my huge revelation tonight. Why can I not trust Him on this issue. I have never just let Him have this problem. I trust Him with so many other worries and issues but why not this one? I was so shocked that with everything I have seen Him do in my life that I had been holding on so tightly to this issue. Needsless to say I was bawling and I mean bawling my eyes out in the middle of service and it contiued intill service had ended. Please pray for me on this issue.

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  1. Mel

    Oh, I have missed someones I’ve never met….so pffffffttt on that saying!

    Those lightbulb moments are sometimes very painful–but I’ve come to understand they’re necessary.

    *hugs and prayers sent your way*

    In G-d’s time, eh?

    (((((( you )))))




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